What if I told you that there’s this one thing you must know? This one thing is the key to unlocking all your self sabotaging patterns. When you become aware of the one thing, you’ll finally see the next steps to move forward in your relationships, your career, your parenting, and everything else that’s important to you.
There’s no way I can tell what your one thing is—only you know that. But if you have the patience to read about my thing, there’s a very good chance that by the end, your thing will be staring you in the face plain as day.
The first time I became aware of my one thing it was this: I was stuck on survival mode. I was making default choices based on what was available and convenient. I sent my kids to a daycare/preschool that had openings and was affordable. I filled the empty space left by the loss of my life partner with anyone who was available to give me love and attention. I continued a job that was no longer rewarding because I could do it on autopilot, and it allowed me to feel like I could pay the bills if the monthly support check stopped coming one day.
When you know better, you do better. So when I became aware, I let go of the things that no longer served me.
Today I discovered my new one thing: I’m living from my wounds. I’m pursuing what I really want, but I’m holding back—I don’t trust. I’m in a kick ass relationship, but I’m still expecting it to turn out as painfully as my last significant one. I’m passionate about my writing, but I have yet to truly believe it can turn into a viable career path. My financial needs are met, but not a day goes by that I don’t consider bailing to the nearest attainable minimum wage job before my dreams have a chance to move forward and materialize.
Here’s The Thing
In the words of spiritual life coach Nicole Oman: “How we do one thing is how we do everything. One wound can touch everything…and so can one healing.”
Using The Thing to Move Forward
How do you operate from a place of healing instead of from your wounds? Here’s where I think my work will be as I move forward.
1. Stop viewing trust through a black and white lens. You don’t have to just trust or not trust someone all at once. People aren’t all good or all bad. You can trust a person’s motives, intention, and commitment. If nothing else, trust the connection. (Hat tip to Rev Zenkai Taiun Michael Ellison who recently spoke at my church for this insight.)
2. Operate with a functional heart. Where do you need boundaries, and where do you need love? Find your balance. Don’t be wide open. Don’t isolate yourself. Be functional. (Hat tip to Nicole Oman for this guidance.)
3. Come to terms with trauma. If you’re operating from your wounds, chances are you’ve experienced some type of trauma in your past. Have you acknowledged that you experienced trauma? There are real, concrete ways to work with it. (Stay tuned for an upcoming post on this!)
What’s your one thing? How are you doing life and what are you going to do about that?